22 May 2012

Things I'm afraid to tell you.

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I've been seeing these "Things I'm afraid to tell you" posts all over the interweb, and thought that it would be fun to join in.  Well, not really fun, but a bit therapeutic I think.  Here goes.

Insecure ~ I'm terribly self conscious here.  Writing this blog makes me think too much about how others see me.  Normally I can kinda walk around and be pretty ok with what I call "The Is-ness that is Kate-ness".  But here, I think that I'm insecure.  I need to let it go.  But really - have you seen all of the amazing blogs out there?  Seriously?  How do you compete with that? Which brings me to the second point...

Competitive ~ I feel like I need to compete with other women.  The logical, sound part of my mind believes that in order for women to truly make progress in the world, we need to join together and support one other.  The crazy-pants part of my brain is constantly comparing every part of myself to other women.  Is her butt better than mine?  I bet her handwriting is amazing!  My handwriting blows.  Look at all the amazing things she's doing with her blog!  I wish I had her wardrobe.

Babies?~ I don't want kids.  Ever.  They just aren't for me.  Even though people say "You're young.  You have a lot of time to think about that" I know that I just don't want children.  And honestly I think it's offensive when people feel like they can tell me that my decision is wrong, or act like this is something that I haven't thought through.

Cheap Thrills ~ I like trashy TV.  Jersey Shore.  America's Next Top Model.  Sister Wives.  Vampire Diaries.  I really, really like it.  I like it just as much as I am totally embarrassed by it.  Mortified, really.  When My Mister and I first got together I would sneak it.  He would come home from work late at night, and I would change the channel really fast to something like Book TV.

Tee-Hee ~ I snort when I laugh.  A lot when I'm uncomfortable.  Which is exactly when I don't want to snort.  Which is fantastic. ;)

4 comments:

  1. High five for putting it out there :D

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    1. Hey thanks! It's hard to keep oneself from editing too much, I find!

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  2. This is a great post - honest and true, the reader can tell.

    Also, I have spent most of my adult life with people pestering me/telling me I need to think/I'm self-absorbed/I'll change my mind/whatever about having kids. Just so you know, you are not alone in your thoughts and decisions, and staying strong about it will not always be easy. But why is it wrong not to have kids, when so many people have them and don't seem to want them???

    Anyway, I liked this post a lot. Hang in there!

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  3. I needed to read this today. Thanks for that.

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